hardly smile - 020409

today should be the happiest, greatest, special and enjoyable day for me but i could feel none of them.nothing special at all.since i woke up in the morning, i could feel that today would be nothing for me, same like the other days and even could be the worst day in my life for this whole year.slept early last night, not feeling well since yesterday. caught a cold, sore troat, running nose which was really irritating.

woke up this morning with sore feet.i have no idea what happened to me since i had this achillies tendonitist problem, i guess..slalunya athlete ja yg dpt sakit2 cmni.I had to meet a doc after 3 weeks worked at the previous company at bukit jalill.rasanya xla teruk sgt aku brjalan nak compare dgn zmn sek dulu, slalu je jln, marching lg every day 3 to 6pm.tp skrg, baru je jln xsmpai 2 km dh sakit2, adakah ini bermakna aku ni dah tua.oh tidak.aku masih muda.sedapkan hati.ini mungkin sbb Tuhan nk bg ujian kat aku.mampu x aku hadapi ujian yg sekecil zarah ni slps mndapat kejayaan demi kejayaan wpon xseberapa.agaknya aku leka dgn kejayaan kecil-kecilan yg aku dpt.Tuhan nk tunjuk dan ingatkan aku supaya jgn leka..

tp pg ni sakit aku lain mcm, sblom ni pn ada gak sakit2 tp lps jln 6,7 langkah akan smakin ok.tp ni dh jln berlangkah-langkah pn masih terasa nyilu, even nk angkat kaki pn terasa sakitnya.in my condition, i should rest and minimize movement yg melibatkan kaki. tp what should i do, kna dtg keja.seksanya nk jln dgn kna berasak-asak lg.n worst comes to worst, sakit ni sblh kanan yg dulunya sblh kiri.dua2 belah kaki aku sudah ternoda.hopefully, sakit ni xlama.xsanggup nak tanggung sakit luaran,yg dalaman pon hampir pengsan.anyway, nothing special on this day.just a date, plus 1 year to my age.

p/s:thanks to all my friends yg still remember me n my birthday, n sudi nak wish. i can say that last year was the best..

p/s/s:not more than 2min to wish me